saved by dis-ease

moral highground might be my downfall

i am just about to hand in my final year projects to finish my degree. this degree has been such a struggle to complete. it feels like i've been destined not to complete, but luckily for me, i fell deadly ill the day before my hand-in.

consequently, i had to go to the doctor and got a sick-letter, which allows me another week or so to work on my project.

this project is giving me so much grief.. let me explain..

for a long time now, i've been struggling with this project, because it is a project on retail.. which to me is a folly. retail represents to me the growing need for personal acquisition and  appropriation. our very selfish  need. find that very wrong. i am a communist in theory, or rather, i believe in:

a communist social structure, with a democratic political structure and a capitalist financial structure

the need for more systems to facilitate capitalist habits, in our time, in the society we live in with so many pertinent issues facing us today; that somehow just seems very ignorant to me.

we are going through a time of change. western habits are destroying the world we live in. green house gasses (>70% of which comes from 1st world countries) are destroying the ecosystems of 3rd world countries, which coincidentally are more ill equipped to deal with it them. the raging drought in central africa which has lasted more than 40years and has killed more people than WW1 and WW2 together, is said to be caused by the by the summer monsoon belt not moving down south enough, caused by the elevated air temp. over the northern hemisphere. This means that since the 1960's these people haven't seen any real rain. this is a direct cause of global warming.

this is just one issue of many, caused by capitalism..

now don't get me wrong, i don't live in a hut, surviving off sustainance farming, but i do believe that we should, if nothing else, strive for a more sustainable way of life.

so...

when i got the news that i was supposed to design a retail store, i felt very strongly about not doing it. i decided to, in stead, try and do a social and moral up-liftment center within the existing retail envelope in a manner which makes it economically sustainable, whilst contributing to society in a positive and responsible  manner..

this is a bit more of a challenge, than i initially anticipated..

but, like i said earlier, luckily i fell ill, and thus have a couple more days to work on it